Continuously self-generating and designating a self

Continuously self-generating and designating a self

Versions that are never fixed and always in flux

Versions that are never fixed and always in flux

An infinite number of responses to who each of us can be

An infinite number of responses to who each of us can be

I am strong and tender like a mother

I am strong and tender like a mother

Seeking to capture myself is impossible

Seeking to capture myself is impossible

At times I am disturbed and simply vulnerable

At times I am disturbed and simply vulnerable

To reflect the impermanence of life

To reflect the impermanence of life

Artist Statement 

It’s impossible not to notice that all of us are invested in our I at one time or another, and in this body of work I set out to investigate my essential I through the genre of self-portraiture. As the work progressed, I focused on my identity and how it played out through my personal lens, remembering that this form of self-perception takes place inside each of us. The images represent different states of my identity and of my mind at different points in time, but I can’t say that any one of them captures me as a whole. In some I am strong and tender like a mother, in others I fearfully recognize the impermanence of life, and I am disturbed and simply vulnerable. 

As I worked through these different modalities of self, I realized that seeking to capture myself was impossible. All of us yearn to know ourselves and frequently ask, “Who am I?” But each of us possess an infinite number of facets; not solid yet continuously self-generating and designating a self. 

It’s important to recognize that although these images are self portraits, they are meant to reflect the impermanence existing in ourselves. There are an infinite number of responses to who each of us can be. When we go inside for the genuine, we can definitely find it - but the moment we find it, it disappears and then reappears, changing over and over again. 

These intaglio prints reveal an interiority identity, tracing unseen states of mind at different points in time. Nuanced shifts in color and image layout betray the subtle shifts between disparate versions of the self: versions that are never fixed and always in flux.